Yeah, so I finally did it – I recorded a completely sloppy 10 mins of what I call “Make Shit Up” time. “Why now?” you ask, “after all that blithering & whining & complaining about how you’re too afraid to put yourself out there?” Many, MANY reasons abound… but those on the short list:
1) I’m feeling ballsy today because work’s going well, and I made a tidy sum on my first ever “day trade” yesterday. (No, I’m not a day-trader, I just decided to bet big & roll the dice yesterday, and they came up rosy.)
2) I’m back in therapy, and today’s session involved a minor break-through acknowledgement: I’m angry about not being in control of my own sense of accomplishment. i.e. I have almost zero ability to try something new on my own volition because I’m always afraid of failing & the punishment it can (and did) entail.
3) I’ve been podcasting with the Tech Support Guy Show for years, and a friend of mine, who consumes more than his fair share of podcasts, complimented my performances, and suggested that I use a podcast as a test platform for comedy since I fear taking the stage physically for a live audience. (Fear is an understatement. I shake like a wet cat in a beer cooler on rocky seas.)
When these three elements combined, they led me to finally say FUCK IT, and so today & I sat down and recorded 10 minutes of pure riffing. And you know what?
IT DIDN’T TOTALLY SUCK.
I’d love your feedback, but DON’T put it in the comments, since I never seem to get them there. EMAIL ME. actor@brianmhansen.com
I’m using podOmatic to upload & host it for now, but 10 mins recorded on iMovie at 640×480 took up 25% of the free capacity they give me, so I may just start uploading it here. So enjoy it one of two ways: here or below.
Seriously… follow me there & keep looking for it here, because it may not last long on podomatic; at this rate I can only get 4 episodes of 10mins a piece before I have to pay. (PRO service is 4 times bigger but costs $10/month… not sure if it’s worth it. Even Tina Fey spent more than 40 mins being awesome before she got Awesome-Sauced by the media.
