Note: PodOmatic, while largely a very easy & great way to keep these things up here, only lets me embed player code that just takes you to the latest episode – so if I keep embedding it here, every embedded player will take you to the same episode. That’s less than ideal… so here’s the links to each one.
I’m officially over my “free” storage limit at podomatic, so if anyone has better ideas on where to post ~400MB video files for your enjoyment, I’m all ears. (Let me know if any of these episodes don’t work & I can save some space.) Episode 3! Episode 2!! Episode 1!!!
A friend has convinced me I really just need to keep doing this sh*t & eventually something will come of it – I can stop worrying about the planning, the editing, the censorship, the material, and just MAKE it. In his words, “There is no win, there is no fail. There is only MAKE.”
Yeah, so I finally did it – I recorded a completely sloppy 10 mins of what I call “Make Shit Up” time. “Why now?” you ask, “after all that blithering & whining & complaining about how you’re too afraid to put yourself out there?” Many, MANY reasons abound… but those on the short list:
1) I’m feeling ballsy today because work’s going well, and I made a tidy sum on my first ever “day trade” yesterday. (No, I’m not a day-trader, I just decided to bet big & roll the dice yesterday, and they came up rosy.)
2) I’m back in therapy, and today’s session involved a minor break-through acknowledgement: I’m angry about not being in control of my own sense of accomplishment. i.e. I have almost zero ability to try something new on my own volition because I’m always afraid of failing & the punishment it can (and did) entail.
3) I’ve been podcasting with the Tech Support Guy Show for years, and a friend of mine, who consumes more than his fair share of podcasts, complimented my performances, and suggested that I use a podcast as a test platform for comedy since I fear taking the stage physically for a live audience. (Fear is an understatement. I shake like a wet cat in a beer cooler on rocky seas.)
When these three elements combined, they led me to finally say FUCK IT, and so today & I sat down and recorded 10 minutes of pure riffing. And you know what?
IT DIDN’T TOTALLY SUCK.
I’d love your feedback, but DON’T put it in the comments, since I never seem to get them there. EMAIL ME. actor@brianmhansen.com
I’m using podOmatic to upload & host it for now, but 10 mins recorded on iMovie at 640×480 took up 25% of the free capacity they give me, so I may just start uploading it here. So enjoy it one of two ways: here or below.
Seriously… follow me there & keep looking for it here, because it may not last long on podomatic; at this rate I can only get 4 episodes of 10mins a piece before I have to pay. (PRO service is 4 times bigger but costs $10/month… not sure if it’s worth it. Even Tina Fey spent more than 40 mins being awesome before she got Awesome-Sauced by the media.
